It is funny how a child can fit so well into your family!
Everyone with children knows that moment when their new baby truly becomes part of the family. It is different for every parent. I know with Big G it was looking in the rearview mirror into the rear seat mirror and seeing her sleeping. For some reason, I knew then I would lay down my life to save hers if ever the need arose. For Little G, it was a little more traumatic. When I saw my sweet baby in the hospital with a IV hanging out of her head, I knew I would do anything to take the pain away from her, it didn't matter what she was feeling. For Griffin though, it was a little different. I did not feel that "love" for him until I went back to get him.
I know, that sounds bad. Let me explain. I loved him as a child. I loved him as a child of God. I loved him as an orphan. Even though we had been through court and he was technically our son, I did not love him as such. That all changed when I got back to the orphanage and saw regression and some sores on his forehead from what looked like stemming. I knew then I would take my son's place in whatever bad situation he may encounter. I knew in my heart I would have stayed in that orphanage in his place had they allowed it. I may never know when our kids truly accepted Griffin as their brother, maybe I can find out from Big G, but for Little G, she'll never be able to tell me (if she has even accepted him yet! LOL!).
It is crazy the difference a year makes... I know, June is his year home with us, but for Maria & I, we have had our son for a year now. Maria took a video of us on the way home from my Granny's birthday party this past weekend. On a long straight stretch of road I was able to share a little part of my childhood with my kids. I remember my Granny "stealing our stomachs" on some thrill hills in her old, tan, cast iron, beast of an automobile. It was even better for us, I am sure, as there was no such thing as seatbelt laws back then! I am sure we caught air in the back seat more than once! Anyway, I took my kids across those rapid drop hills and they LOVED it! Everyone of our kids were squealing and laughing. It was this moment I hope Griffin felt he was a part of our family.
He was laughing and giggling and squealing right along with everyone else. The funny thing is he was raising his hands like he was on a roller coaster! He's going to be a thrill seeker we think. At that point all of our children were acting as, sorry for going military here, a cohesive unit. That split second reassured me that I, that we, were in God's will and that I would gladly trade my life if it could make my children as happy as they are in this video!
I leave ya'll with the evidence, with my proof of family if you will. I'm guilty, and so glad!
See ya'll later!