I am excited, nervous, scared, nostalgic, destroyed, humbled, and a host of other emotions all balled up into one man for this upcoming week.
Why so much? Well, tomorrow morning I fly out of Ramstein headed to San Antonio, TX, for my formal medical board, to try to convince a group of Air Force personnel that I need to be permanently retired, not on this temporary retirement program.
Excited... it's finally happening after over 2 years of daily pain, and 2 cancelled boards due to my hospitalizations.
Nervous... flying, flying with pain, flying with pain and a crutch, facing a medical board, leaving my family, there are a host of reasons.
Scared... this meeting could very well determine my families future.
Nostalgic... this is where my Air Force life started nearly 17 years ago. I know it has changed since I was there for BASIC training, but it's still the place this long, strange trip started.
Destroyed... either way, temporary or permanent retirement, this trip marks the end of my quest for a 20 year military career. While yes, I'll get a retirement of some sort, I despise not achieving goals that I set my mind to. It's fitting that my time in the military "ends" at the place it all started. By "ends" I mean that the decision to end it will be made, I still have a little time back here in Germany before I will actually get out.
Humbled... by the outpouring of support and well wishes I have received through this process. I have been overwhelmed by my leadership, co-workers, friends and family's response to this process. Thank you all!
There are too many more feelings to list, but trust me, I could go on and on. Please pray for Maria and the kids... the kids that they will behave & Maria's sanity! LOL! Pray for me for my travels. Pray for the board for wisdom. Thank you all!
See ya'll later!