I had the privilege of sharing my thoughts with a friend today on what it's like to have children. It really got me to thinking a lot about what kind of mother I am and what kind of mother I strive to be. I really needed this conversation! It makes me want to step it up even more. So thank you, friend! I can talk about my children all day and all night! :-) Here is a little of my side of the conversation and I added a bit as I have reflected on the conversation throughout the day:
I thought my life was awesome without kids... I was so wrong. I had no idea just how much more awesome life is WITH kids. There is something so refreshing about seeing the world all over again through the eyes of your child. You teach them everything they know because they start out as a blank canvas. There is no person on this planet that will love you the way your child loves you... and it's so unconditional, the way love always should be. Having children changes everything, for the best. The world could crumble around me but when my children crawl into my lap, nothing else matter. They love me. They need me. They give my life so much more purpose. I focus on living my life for God, but also living it as a mother... I am no longer in the equation at all.
When I'm 70 years old, I hope that my future looks like this, Lord willing: The hubs and I sitting on the front porch in our porch swing with our children hanging out with us...and our grandchildren running around the yard. I hope, I wish, I pray!!! Family is a blessing...Family is where it's at! The world will fade away, but families are there to stay.
What is your legacy? I want to leave a legacy behind that means something. I may not always get it right and I may make mistakes along the way, but what did I do with those mistakes? How did I change my ways? How did I make it right? What am I leaving behind for my children to learn from? What their lives are revolving around right now is unconditional love. By teaching them about God's unconditional love and by loving them unconditionally myself, I hope that I am teaching them that love is real, it exists, and if you have love in your life and you love others unconditionally, life is awesome, and it is!
So yeah, I'm gonna do better... I am doing better!
As for someone else who's doing better, Griffin has had no fever today! I gave him another dose of Tylenol at midnight and then didn't have to give him any more after that. I honestly have no idea what is wrong with him. He will see his behavioral/developmental specialist tomorrow who is a pediatrician so I'm going to see if he will investigate for me. I'm suspecting an ear or throat issue. He keeps putting his hands to his mouth a lot, like he's wanting something or trying to tell me something. I can't, for the life of me, see enough of his throat to tell if it's even red. But by being that his fever is gone, I know he must be recovering.
He did the sweetest thing tonight! After practicing his walking, I gave him a sippy cup of diluted juice in the living room and then walked away to get some stuff done. He finished his juice and cruised over to Chris to hand him the empty sippy cup! What a sweetheart!
By the way, my friend mailed me some bells so I can start making more Giraffe Meats again! Yeah!!! I'll get started on them this week!
I'll keep y'all updated on tomorrow's appointment!
Thank you for praying for our little dude!
Love and Hugs!